Are You Listening?

You made me?
Did you forget to finish
Or maybe you ran out of time
You sewed me together with lose stitches
So I was bound to fall apart…
 
And then…
 
Then you hurt me, I used to trust you
I don’t talk about you anymore because
I think believing in you was
A little like believing in Santa Clause
 
I used to think there would be salvation
And you would hide the evil away
From my innocent eyes,
 
But alas,
 
You threw me away, but I still prayed
I prayed for the evil to disappear
I asked for your help
I begged to wake up from the nightmare
 
I thought you cared about everyone
So then, why do I feel so alone…
Where were you?
 
I cried…
 
All of my broken pieces were laid around the room
I began to cry for everyone else
And pray that they would be okay
When it was me that needed to find myself
 
I cried for hours that melted into years
And no one came to recuse me
Where were you?
 
No one came.
 
I had given up on the childish thought
That you cared about me
You promised a Heaven for the hurt to go to
So I asked to come, but you didn’t hear me
 
It was a mean trick you played
And I don’t understand why
I thought you loved us all.
 
Breathe…
 
Because she forgets how to feel
Numbness takes over and the demon wins
She hurts herself to prove that she can’t heal
The scars keep away anyone who wants her
 
She wastes away waiting for a sign
That you are there in this big world
All she wanted was some of your time
 
At the funeral,
 
At the funeral they said their “goodbye”
Why, sweet girl, did you have to die?
She cried in silence and we never knew
Just how big of a storm she had gone through
 
She lies in a bed of roses
Dressed in a white gown with lace
She must be beautiful at last
 
 
Where do I go when I die?
What do I get out of barely living?
Will I be okay here on Earth?
What will happen to me… to us?