Lately I have had a lot of really complicated feelings that I don't care to discuss... yet here I am. Tomorrow I have to present a story about my life to a room full of people I barely know. I think I'm going to approach it with a "There are two Sara's" concept... the Sara that was enduring and hiding, and the Sara that was happy, healthy, and high achieving. I plan on ending it with "This is my story, but I am not defined by it, I am creating a new story from here on and that is what will make me a better person." It's a little too confident for where I am right now, but it's what they want to hear O.o I have to somehow convince people that IOP is helping. In a certian light it is helping, but not much. My disorder is very loud right now BUT my self sabotaging and suicidal thoughts aren't really present. It's almost like I am too sad to muster up the energy and time it takes to do anything.
Okay I can't do this much longer... getting into detail right now is just going to make things worse. I'll post again in a few days hopefully.
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